Empty Your Head

 Hello. Is anyone out there? Hmm, silence. Never mind (says Emily Litella). I’m mostly writing this for myself. It helps a little.

I’ve been reading over my most recent posts, and I’m not happy. I seem to be obsessed with the same subject. I seem angry and fearful. To that I say, “Isn’t everyone?”

I’ve done what I promised myself not to do. I am letting one person suck up my thoughts and my days, and it is too much. I’m becoming a woman obsessed. I’m giving my life over to domination by evil.

Enough. I met the nicest person last week. It was at a used books store where I struck up a conversation with a young man shopping for fast food toys - you know, the kind of toys you get in a Happy Meal or other fast food joints. He said they brought him happy memories from his childhood, and that now he has a 3-month old son who will get to play with them.

We chatted pleasantly for a few minutes, and I walked on up the aisle, looking for books. In a little while, the young man walked up to me and said, “I want you to meet my wife and son.”

I was so surprised and touched. His wife is a lovely person with beautiful red hair. She held their son in her arms. That baby turned around and looked at me and his face broke open with smiles. He laughed out loud. He was the most adorable child I think I had ever seen. He bubbled over with joy, and he made me feel wonderfully happy and so honored to meet this nice person’s family.

“This,” I told my husband later, “is why I talk to strangers.” It was such a wonderful experience for me. I buzzed with good feelings, which return every time I think about it

I’m going to try to put things like this in my head as often as i can. That other stuff sucks the life out of you and refills your head with despair. Whew! I’m going to go out and meet some more good people. I’ve had it with the other kind.