Rereading my post from yesterday. Who is this person? So filled with anger, fear, and sadness. I can hardly recognize myself. I have to turn off the news and turn toward things that keep me happy and on track. I can't give my time, my life, to such a person. It's been seven years already.
I think what will be, will be, and it may be a rough time Let me know when it's over. I hope goodness wins and our country stands.
If you are like me, the best part of 2020 was the thought, after the election, "Thank God, we are done with the ex-president, the one who shall not be named. We don't have to listen to him or hear about him any longer. What a blessed relief!
(Please insert a long, agonized pause.)
What Happened??? That man (and I use the term lightly), absolutely owns this country and shows no signs of going away. As a matter of fact, it is worse. The media cannot stop talking about him, yelling about, rolling their eyes AND continuing to give him the attention that he so badly wants. Through his leadership, I am now afraid to be out and about where any kind of crowd gathers.
I feel buffeted by non-stop outpouring of hate. I saw a large sign in someone's yard which read, "F__K BIDEN". I can't stop seeing it in my mind. Who would want to broadcast that 24-7 to one's neighbors and strangers passing by? What if I had to see that every day? What if children see it? Well, heck, it doesn't matter because we no longer care about other people. It's all about me and my rights, so "F--K, You!"
The most painful example of this is the slaughter of small children in school - collateral damage to the securing of my right to carry a weapon of mass destruction as soon as I get out of diapers and my right to take out anyone who disagrees with me. We don't care how many children die. This is a country which doesn't care how many small children are slaughtered. Would you have ever thought that this could be said of the USA?
It is also worse because since January 6, we have begun to see the workings of an evil, criminal, and sick mind, and the hypocrisy and lies of those who for some baffling reason continue to support him, even though he shouts out to the world every day his disdain for this country, our Constitution, and our rule of law. He makes no secret of the fact that he admires brutal, autocratic dictators, and longs to become one himself. Sadly, he might just succeed. The craziness and absurdity of this is without limits. We are trapped in an implausible horror movie which, like Groundhog Day, just keeps repeating itself.
The thought that those who support him would gladly hand the country over to such a person and give him free rein is beyond belief. Of all the things I do not understand in life, this is the most incomprehensible and shameful to me. It is the saddest.
He is a sick (you know the word we are not supposed to say), and cannot help some of his behaviors. But the allegedly not narcissistic or psychopathic people, who should know better, are the real perpetrators here. He has been a con man criminal his entire life. Others have let him get away with it. He does not know that the rules apply to him. They let him get away with it.
How do you imagine he might behave should he come to power again? I suggest that he has been using his time at Mar-El--Unholy Palace By the Sea to plan his revenge, and it will be bloody. There will truly be no way to get our country back because he would destroy it for his own gain. Were you around for January 6th? It was merely a light preview. The worst is yet to come.
I'm reading over this, and I know that i could have, and probably did, write this stuff over and over since 2016. So the point of this is: I am sad.
It is a profound, exacerbating sadness that paints everything with a dull gray. Do you feel it too? It comes from being exposed on a daily basis to horrors that you cannot believe could happen, and without relief, they just get worse every day. It comes from helplessness. I don't know what to do.
I have written countless letters to our representatives, but they have joined the cult, and my pleas fall on deaf ears. I can vote - but these people are working hard to make sure that any dissenting opinion and vote will never be heard or counted. They are working hard to assure that they get control and that it can never be taken away.
I am sad and anxious about this, and how we are just rolling away from reason and towards chaos and the collapse of our democracy, and I am helpless. Sometimes I cannot sleep at night. I hate to watch the news. i cannot stop watching the news.
I have actual thoughts about some terrible fate happening to this Monster-in-Chief, yeah and his evil munchkins too. Seriously, I wish he would go away (as in pass on) permanently. I have never wished this for any person prior to this.
i dread for anyone to ask, "How are you?" What can I possibly answer? The only response, and one that I hate to dump on someone who is just trying to be polite, is "I'm sad, and I am afraid."
I don't know what i am going to do about it. I don't believe I could live through another administration with this villain. I do know I am not alone, others feel the same way.
I look daily for something to make me feel hopeful, and then the next worse thing happens. For example; T---p is indicted. Grand jury called in T-land and a judge who was appointed by him and who supports him to absurdity is assigned to the case. I doubt it ever even comes to trial. So he can continue sharing our military and nuclear secrets with the people in his bizarre world, with our enemies. So he can continue to own our country.
